People with schizophrenia often have symptoms that bring them closer to autism, and indeed I find myself in the description of asperger's autism on wikipedia: Autism Asperger
I felt like people were violently mocking each other and that it was the norm to be accepted by society, yet I felt that it wasn't the case either, and that it was more my brain that was bothering to think that, but I felt it frankly in periods.
I could get this feeling that I was being mocked badly and that if I try to explain why when people joke about me, it's not justified, then I'll pass for a quilt. Which is surely a little true because often if I was sent spades it was to joke, to tease but not to be mean, being a little autistic, I did not understand well, I felt that what I felt was wrong.
I also had a little peculiar behaviors such as blocking myself on objects, manipulating them long, obsessively, to reassure me, or in exploration video games, I used to look at the details, the small objects that I found very well done, and I wasted a hell of time on it compared to the normal player.
My voice was monotonous, without intonation, although I really felt like I was putting intonations, if I listened to a recording of my voice, no there was no intonation! 🙁
As described on the comics of the wikipedia page: Autism AspergerI did a lot of big blunders when talking to others.
It started a lot following the introduction of bactrim, I think that bactrim really helped because following bactrim I went from 7.5mg of abilify to 5mg, while many things improved, and it had been years that I was at 7.5mg of abilify. I don't know if it would work for others but it's an important track to try.
(Bactrim is an antibiotic that can be taken long-term, which fights against a brain parasite: toxoplasmosis present in me and in 70% of people with schizophrenia, while only 50% of people without schizophrenia have it. This parasite is suspected of playing a role in schizophrenia)